amazed!

Just put the little fellas down for nap. They are so precious. I am feeling such an overload of thankfulness that I wanted to take a moment and record my thoughts.  Our puzzle that we've been trying to fit together is beginning to make more sense.  When we began this journey we didn't seek out a baby. We couldn't understand why we needed to adopt through Heaven Sent instead of our church agency. We prayed and prayed. I interviewed tons of agencies and turns out we clicked with one right here in our town!  If you remember I wanted to go to Africa because I wanted a time line.    Every step of this journey has taken such faith and trust that I can not explain. So much of it has gone against what I would have wanted to do. 

 It is crazy because it is like you know you have a child somewhere but you can't find them and you are willing to do just about anything to find them.  This agency did our home study (Heaven Sent) and really got to know us and our desires in our adoption.  They had us attend hours of training through the state and it didn't really make a lot of sense to us since we knew we wanted to adopt instead of be a foster parent.  In those classes we learned about attachment and adopting children that come into your home not as a newborn.  I couldn't get enough to read on these subjects.  I thought I was crazy because I would check out books, buy books and read all that I could on attachment.  Now all of this serves as such a blessing to me. 

Once we hit a road block with Heaven Sent because placements are so few with what our plans were and the state did not want to work with the agency-Heaven sent directed us to American Adoptions were we needed to save money to become ready again. It was hard to understand but we were willing to do what we felt so lead to do.  We will need the money for legal fees and many other adoption fees. If we had not become prepared we would not have been ready for these precious cuties without completely strapping our family.    
Our birth mom found us through our agency-Heaven Sent. We couldn't have ask for a stronger more beautiful person inside and out to be our birth mom. We love her and respect her beyond anything I can express.  She is a perfect fit for us.    We were lead together. It makes so much sense now.  Some call it coincidence. I call it destiny designed by God.  

****What happens if they have to go back and something doesn't work out the way it is planned?*****
Proverbs 3:5
"Trust in the Lord with all thine  heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding."

If our call was to be parents to these little boys forever or for a month we have to do the best we can with what we've been given.    We are so thankful for the lessons we are learning and the way this has brought us closer as a family. 


Now on a not so serious note....it's been awhile since I've carried a two year old around. My arms, back and sides are so sore. I am so out of shape! 

I can't tell you the last time all of us have been up before 7 on a Saturday morning.  We were all up laughing and playing bright and early even the teenagers were up that didn't get home from going out to eat after the game till super late! 

We drove to Krispy Kreme for donuts but we all don't fit in one vehicle! The big boys stayed home and waited!

Yesterday when we picked up Caroline from school we drove around to the football end of the building to tell the big brothers good luck. When Blake and Andrew were leaving the little brothers yelled out "BYE BUBBAS!!!"  We got a good laugh out of that.



Thank you for your prayers. I feel them and know they are working. They are adjusting fast and we are too.
Keep praying!