Well here I am doing what I said I wouldn't do this fall. I promised myself when all the children started school I would:
1. Have a clean home
2. Have an organized home
3. Do magical memories in the day while they are gone and not all night long!
4. Exercise more
5. Take a nap once a week
6. Take a long bath once a week
7. Read a book
oh and I am sure when the babes were little and every where- I could've listed a few more things that I was sure I would do as they grew.
Here I am working into the night. It is November of C's kindergarten year and I haven't done anything I said I would do! What is the matter with me? I guess then I didn't know how needy they still are when they grow. Just a new kind of needy. I didn't know that it is still really exhausting just a different kind. I didn't know what teen age hormones were. I didn't know how hard it would be to follow through with punishments. I didn't know it would hurt my feelings too when someone hurt my daughters feelings at school. I didn't realize my phone would ring off the hook -my kids would be calling and I would have to run up to school because an eye got scratched by a contact.....or a terrible head ache or Thanksgiving lunch that would last all day!...or.....or .....or....The desperate words of please Mommy please bring me my homework I forgot. Most always I say no but some times I am a softy and if I am not S. is! Someone should have told me all this before I went into this child rearing thing! It is really never ending isn't it!
So in between uploading this past weeks photos online I thought I would catch up on some blogging!
I have really been thinking lately what is it that I get so far behind on working...I think I have finally realized it is so hard because I don't just leave and go to work. I am trying to work around every one's schedule. I am grabbing an hour here and there and in between shoots. So that is why tonight I am so excited to have uninterrupted WORK!
I grabbed my hot chocolate and cookies. Rhonda's recipe. I 'll even post it in a few minutes. And I am reading up on all of you while I load and edit! I can feel my hips growing ugh! I guess I'll have to leave off the cookies NEXT TIME!
5 comments:
I hear you friend. You are almost over the hump. Let me know if I can help. Love you!!!
I totally understand what you are experiencing with never leaving for work. I totally feel the same with kids needing me, needing to put my hours in with work,looking at the dishes and laundry piling and trying to balance everything else. It stretches me in every way emotionally, mentally and physically. Plus, "mother's guilt" plays a huge role in all of it. HOWEVER, I am so grateful I can work from home and be there for the kids, and have flexible hours so I can be more available to them. Good luck with it all -- One blessing is that you know it will slow down in just a bit. Those are great pictures, by the way!!! You have a great gift!!
So true. I have had several people ask me "WHAT are you going to do next year when all of your kids are in school?" ARE YOU KIDDING ME??? I can think of about 1 bazillion things I can do! Who has time for a "job"?! This Mommy stuff doesn't end just because they're shipped off to school....
I worked from home for two years. Consulting, with a bunch of men who had wives to make the dinner/feed the baby/burp the baby/clean the house. I did this during conference calls. I did this during phone interviews (I was in HR). I did this during every darned thing until they finally told me that I was huffing into the phone (cleaning), making too many cooing sounds (feeding/burping baby) and beeping too much (duh, nuking dinner) and I told them that I was (beep.burp.coo.huff.) done.
However, in two years I learned one thing (that normal people don't get out of breath mopping a floor. I digress.) To schedule your work just like it is what it is...which is work. Schedule your YOU time also. The mommy stuff will fall between the cracks and crevices and fill up the rest. Your children will THANK you later, when they don't feel the need to be overacheiver parents themselves, but to put themselves (and their marriages) first and make sure they are happy themselves. Oh, that was a terrible sentence. But you know what I mean.
Crud. Now I am out of breath again.
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