Friday, April 22, 2011

Gratitude with the good bad and ugly

Last night we went out collecting yard sale things for our upcoming sale. We got home late. Steve  and I were grumpy. We were lifting heavy things and he was short with me and I snapped back. Let's just say it ended up me grabbing my pillow and moving to the couch!  LOL! I only tell you this personal stuff because it is important part of the whole story. 

I couldn't sleep. I was fuming all night.  I kept getting up and reading my scriptures but it didn't work!  If I heard him snore I got madder! (Told you some of this was ugly) I could feel satan's influence as I let myself think negative thoughts and feel grumpy!   By this morning we had many things to do and went on our ways. He was actually nice and trying to apologize but I was still mad! (grudge holding!) I took one look at my house and my garage and got completely overwhelmed with all this.  It felt bigger than me. It is bigger than me.   I spent my morning driving kids to different events feeling grumpy and selfish and overloaded. 

Then the mail came with a card that said Philippians 4:19 "And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus." with a $100 check. 

Caroline said, "Mom, why are you crying so much." HA!  I was so overwhelmed with the timing and the blessing all in one.  I am so thankful for the atonement and that I can repent of my sins and be forgiven. 

We have never been on the receiving end like we are right now. This is truly a witness of daily miracles. As I realize that this is bigger than us but it's not bigger than Him I am again reminded that this is His plan not ours.  How grateful we are to get to experience this blessing. 

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