Fasting and answers

After graduation in Dec. I found myself completely exhausted. It was a different kind of exhaustion from when I used to stay up all night doing picture work or had new born babies exhaustion. It was mental exhaustion. I feel like the entire time I was in school I really never put my feet on the floor. I worked part time,crazy loads of  homework from taking too many hours of school at once,  Steve worked two jobs and callings, kids sports then we through the PATH classes and homestudy in there but the all time hardest but most painful and exhausting part of school was Dad being so sick and in the hospital then loosing Dad. By the time Dec. rolled around it had been 10 months since we lost him but I had not let myself really rest. I was so excited to get a job teaching that I was not about to let myself take a break over the holidays. I had to get my room ready and lesson plans. It was so exciting and fun!   Then,  a little miracle took place...snow! We got so many snow days! We got more snow days than I remember ever getting since Blake started school. I feel like Heavenly Father was giving those snow days just to me! Finally, the exhaustion hit me and took me down.  I literally could not pick myself up off the couch. I was so exhausted like I can't explain exhausted. Snow day after snow day I slept and laid around with some much needed time with my kids! One day in particular I remember thinking what is wrong with me! I never lay around like this!  Wednesday night church was cancelled giving me even more extra rest from  my new youth calling at church.  I was able to focus on my classroom and my family and rest. It was a blessing. I could feel the peace coming over my body with the rest I needed to move forward with a lot of the pain that was lingering. 

What happened next took me by surprise. I thought I would snap out of it. As the weather picked up I would get up early. I loved getting to school super early and work before the children arrived. At school I was fine. I had tons of energy. I would stay late  at work getting organized but by the time I got home I had nothing left for my family. I would find myself crashing early-not being able to have the energy to do the things here at home that I loved to do. It was really bothering me.

 I decided to fast  and really pray about it. I have fasted for many things in my life but not something as simple as to have the energy I needed to be a good mom when I got home from work. I kinda felt like it crazy to ask for something so simple since I am in good health and have so many blessings why can't I just snap out of it. I needed energy to finish all this adoption paperwork that we felt so strong to do and I couldn't help but think if I'm this tired how could I handle a new born!  Another miracle happened as quickly as I asked for this simple thing...more energy....I got it. I found myself coming home and getting things done and being with my kids more than ever.   I mean it was one of those answers to my prayers that I didn't have to wait a day for. 

At first I thought I was just dreaming it and had a sudden burst of energy but then after a couple of days I was amazed. Now I can say I still have a day here or there that I am tired but I am shocked at the difference. I never really thought about asking the Lord for the smallest thing like energy when I was asking for 14,000 more dollars for a baby! But, I am reminded again and again the scripture in 

Matthew 7:7 "Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you."

What a blessing I received even for the the smallest things like energy to help me fulfill these small callings as well as the bigger ones.  This just confirms the testimony that He lives and loves us all and wants to help with the smallest things.