Tonight was our first home study visit. I thought she would be here about an hour for the first visit but three hours later I was wondering how long these visits take! We talked a lot, filled out lots of paperwork and wrote her a big check-and well......here we go. I thought she would check the house more. She said she would again next visit. I guess she was checking but not checking like I thought she would.
She was very honest and told us it is really really hard to adopt from foster care. She has told us that before but she wanted to go in detail with us. She said when you adopt foreign you have a bit of a time line but the route we are going there is no timeline whatsoever. She said it could get very frustrating and she wanted to warn us of this. It could be immediately or a year. So I did feel a little scared of the unknown. I pray that following our hearts is the right thing as we pursue this type of adoption instead of foreign adoption. I've gone through at least 100 thoughts in my mind all jumbled up-like:should we foster first the odds of an adoption placement are way higher if you foster first, or maybe we should go foreign, or what in the world are we doing! And then I feel that wonderful peace that I felt so many times as I have prayed my whole soul out about this decision and the feeling of we are in the right place doing just what we are suppose to do at this time. It's easy to say to turn it over to the Lord but it's so hard to do!
3 comments:
EEEK! i'm so excited!! You know what to do girl but fostering to adopt is never a bad idea. Only I get the feeling you will get a child outright... just a thought. I love that she was careful to tell you the reality and the odds of 1 day to 1 year is AWESOME. the odds they gave us was 6mo - 2 years for a newborn baby so you could have your child faster with her time table. :) Regardless, once your child is in your home you will quite literally forget the wait and realize you don't remember a time they weren't in your family. That is one of the tender mercies of the Lord. xoxo
Yea for your first home study! Honestly, thoughts will probably continue to run through your head the entire process. Remember though that He who began a good work in you (and your family) will carry it on to completion....Much Love!
I just am so excited! I can't believe they make it so hard to adopt though! It seems like with SO MANT kids in foster care that they would be willing to work with people a little more! Crazy!
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